Haiz...jus reach hm not long ago...dunno why my heart was feelin veri upset n depressed...realli wan to cry out...maybe i was alone ba...Hear tat my 3 years ex-stead was being chase n i think they most prossibly will become stead as most of the time they go out together...i feel veri upset because she had bluff mi,the reason of breakin is tat she wan to concentrade on her studies but nw i think she had been love n feel love too...n i think they will become stead...actually i felt veri angry...because she lies to mi...but i think she break with mi because she is feelin pressure ba...but at least she can say the turth to mi ma...but if she is happy with the guy i am happy for her too...maybe i haven forget her ba...so i everytime ask her n tat guy goin together if they ar realli love towards each other...Hope they will xin fu kuai le...

As for mi...i realli HATE Myself alot...because i am veri hua xin...n i dun wan to hurt them because in my mind is all messy i rather be alone n upset my whole life than hurtin them actually i most of the time alone in my room i will cry...think tat was veri funny a big guy cry but i realli cannot control my feelin...i feel so lonely n not one to talk to..N i hate to be alone i jus wanted to share all my sadness but it seem to be no one,realli wan to end my life jus like tat...

The gals tat i dun wish to hurt was...ling li...N think tat is impossibe to be together again...n i will forget about her n wish her all the best in watever she does or do... Another one is my pri sch lover...she is 4ever busy n i think tat she have no time 4 mi..N the last one who have touched mi...she like mi veri much but i dunno hw to appreciate it...she is realli a nice gal n is a realli gd gf...anyone who go stead with her will be veri xin fu de...maybe i not so xin fu n not too gd for her ba...

Nw realli wan to wish tis three gal Xin fu...hope they will find their true loves...see them happy i will be happy 4 them too...if realli i can end my life to make them xin fu...i will...N i will always to protect them...whenever they get bullly.....

Wish them all the best...

See u all happy i will be happy too...Take care... NIte~

mi blurted out @ Monday, August 29, 2005