Haiz...jus reach hm not long ago...dunno why my heart was feelin veri upset n depressed...realli wan to cry out...maybe i was alone ba...Hear tat my 3 years ex-stead was being chase n i think they most prossibly will become stead as most of the time they go out together...i feel veri upset because she had bluff mi,the reason of breakin is tat she wan to concentrade on her studies but nw i think she had been love n feel love too...n i think they will become stead...actually i felt veri angry...because she lies to mi...but i think she break with mi because she is feelin pressure ba...but at least she can say the turth to mi ma...but if she is happy with the guy i am happy for her too...maybe i haven forget her ba...so i everytime ask her n tat guy goin together if they ar realli love towards each other...Hope they will xin fu kuai le...

As for mi...i realli HATE Myself alot...because i am veri hua xin...n i dun wan to hurt them because in my mind is all messy i rather be alone n upset my whole life than hurtin them actually i most of the time alone in my room i will cry...think tat was veri funny a big guy cry but i realli cannot control my feelin...i feel so lonely n not one to talk to..N i hate to be alone i jus wanted to share all my sadness but it seem to be no one,realli wan to end my life jus like tat...

The gals tat i dun wish to hurt was...ling li...N think tat is impossibe to be together again...n i will forget about her n wish her all the best in watever she does or do... Another one is my pri sch lover...she is 4ever busy n i think tat she have no time 4 mi..N the last one who have touched mi...she like mi veri much but i dunno hw to appreciate it...she is realli a nice gal n is a realli gd gf...anyone who go stead with her will be veri xin fu de...maybe i not so xin fu n not too gd for her ba...

Nw realli wan to wish tis three gal Xin fu...hope they will find their true loves...see them happy i will be happy 4 them too...if realli i can end my life to make them xin fu...i will...N i will always to protect them...whenever they get bullly.....

Wish them all the best...

See u all happy i will be happy too...Take care... NIte~

mi blurted out @ Monday, August 29, 2005

Tis gal write tis letter to mi...on the 29/05/05 n i will wan to share with u all guys...

My First letter to u...

hmmm...know tis cai kai lun not long ago ,kind of less than 4 months But basically,i know everythin about him...Haha! Details about him...

Tis is wat i wanna let u know...

Kai lun, thought i noe u not as long as wad lingli knows but i've neve regret knowin u.You allow mi to understand wat is care n concern.knowin u as my friend has already give my life a veri big satisfaction.But i hope we can go beyond friends.Haha! That's Wat i am always thinkin about n imagine about.You can sae i'm cazy.Yup,It's true.cause i am crazy in love with u thoughtu always as mi not to.Anyway,you're a nice guy n treat everyone equally.To be honest,i somethin do get jealous by the way u treat others.it's make mi feel uneasy but i 'm fine with it.And sometime felt wretched n downhearted too.lalala!
Hmmm,as i told u b4,i shouldn'tcontrol u so much.causei think tat the limit has excceded.So i wanna say "sorry"n hope you dun mind.i noe l'm violent, but tat's the way i am.but i will change .Give mi time,i promise K?i'm a gal with attitude problem n i like to nag.i can sae tis again n again but i hope u can accept the way i am.juz wanna tell u....i like u n it's veri much.may our closeness as ever..
I'm tired le...gotta sleep cos having exam tml ...Haiz!Goodnite kai lun,May u have the sweetest dreams everynite...take care..
And...
I miss u...


(29/05/05)

mi blurted out @ Friday, August 26, 2005

K la mi nw update my blog la...Hmmm where should i start..erm...

On the 22/06/05...mi went sentosa with my secondary sch friends...we went there 4 two days one nite...the chalet there is realli veri small onli can put our things onli...But nvm because it is free de when i sign the the m1 student plan...

we went there to play soccer and also tanin in the swimmin pool OoOo hehe...haha realli have alot of fun there...after in the evenin we went to hunt 4 food...We was like dunno where to have our dinner...so we walk round n round in the sentosa N in the end we found a seafood buffet everyone is relive to see the buffet because everyone is hungry to dead...haha when we went there we wack all the food in the buffet like long time neve eat b4 like tat...so funny sia...

After we have our dinner..everyone was full n hardly walk back to the chalet...we went back to the chalet n come our again tis time we went to the beach to see the nite scenery...it was rather dark but the breeze the will veri coolin like i long time neve had b4 le...after tat we went swimmin in the swimmin pool again so as to relax ourselves...haha...after tat we went to take a bath...after tat we went to our chalet n sleep...

We check out in the mornin at 10.15 because it was goin to rain le...so we set off quickly to the place where our warmly bed is...reach hm at 12 somethin immediatly fall in my warmly bed n sleep...haha...

mi blurted out @ Friday, August 26, 2005

Hi todae is my 18 brithdae...hehe actually i am quite excited..because i finally 18 le...hehe..
My 1st wish is tat i could find a gf who is able to care n conern about mi...hehe
My 2nd wish is tat i hope i can pass all my exam all in my life...haha
My 3rd wish is tat i hope world peace n also all the ppl in the world livin happy in their life.n stay healthy 4 ever...

Tat is all my wish for my birthdae...hope all will come true...

mi blurted out @ Sunday, August 07, 2005

Yester mi went out with wanteng...she was realli funny...her laugh was like :0 when she laugh...haha so funny man...We went to esplanade to watch the nite scenery...it's was beautiful...We sat there n talk about our xin shi...Reali miss those good old times in the pri sch...Realli wish her all the best watever she do...stay happy is the most important things in life...Not to her only...i mean to everyone in tis world...Cherish everyone beside u espec all yr love ones...

Actually i realli wan to be a Christ,Actually tat time i went to the concert i wan to go...but i dun dare...Because i think if i become a christ...i wun be alone n i can also always see the gal who i always wan to see...Maybe if i gt a chance again i will become christ...

mi blurted out @ Friday, August 05, 2005